In a Holding Pattern

Things have become a wee bit stagnant here on my surrogacy journey. While I have been welcomed back to my agency with open arms, I have opted NOT to be put back onto the "available" lists with the matcher's. I am holding out for the perfect match with a daddy, but I haven't gotten confirmation weather or not we will work together, etc. It could be weeks before I really know anything either way. The wait SUCKS but I really think it will be totally worth it if this hoped-for match goes through.
Cross all available fingers and other various bits that it does! The not knowing is killing me, but we all know patience is NOT my strong point. So this is a good lesson for me!